Well it appears im back again although i thought i would never really post on here again. However rereading some of my old posts has made me realise how daft and silly my writing style is because it is literally just word vomit! and i apparently liked breaking dawn quite a bit when now i think its rubbish! I must have changed in the last couple of months then.

Well to get to the crux of the matter i think it came down to a boy, why i might have changed. In a first proper relationship when you are actually happy, and therefore dont want to ruin the happiness by telling the person about when they annoy the hell out of you, which i really should have done. Beauty of hindsight i suppose. I was a mess really when i broke up with him, although i didnt let it show - its like there was a good feeling that the pressure was off but there was so much i was giving up for it which im regretting a bit now. Maybe this will teach me in the future for not giving up on things or people because you are scared. You hear it all the time but im only just starting to understand what it means.

Also afraid I'm never going to find it again. several failed attempts as usual but i actually thought they were going somewhere - a weird stubborn part of my mind is still thinking it. But really ive started to learn that love is weird and if you pin it down, its just going to switch on you, so just leave it.

Just leaves a feeling of uncertainity though whilst you wait patiently....

Yep liking this more mature side of me.

lol just thought of doing daily booth in this journal - LETS DO IT!

http://dailybooth.com/dashboard

oh and my whasit on it even if i have no webcam to do it :(

http://dailybooth.com/tillyking

lol the ones i am trying to look decent look rubbish so ill just give this treat :F
rofl v commical!!

woop!1!  i is incredibly awesome cos el popsong composition only has one verse to go!!!!! i really hope mr farnhill is happy with me ! then i just have the other one to sort out!

has been good working on it, if a bit frustrating ? i take it as a sort of good thing - hope this means i am actully suited to music?

lol there are lots of buttons at the top of this page. might mess with them later...

i have also put my second post in 2 days! this feels awesme!

might leave the comp for tonight and battle art - she wanted lots done by tommorw and im not sure what ive done is enought to be honest... maybe if i do lots of annotation (even if it is a bitch to do!) and it took me a while to think of the word rofl.

lol i have some comical spellings - lol nearly put spellos mixing typos and spellings rofl i <3 my dyslexic brain
 

i have been reading alex day from youtubes diary nd have been inspiredt o start writing in here again - whether i like it or not!

i have been getting into youtube alot.for a while now - not actually posting one of my own videos because im not sure my yorkshire accent will go over well. maybe music channel - but ill have to write some music!.

i have fund the vlogbrothers and happily discovered i am a nerd fighter. i do spend most of my time when n youtube wondereding how these people managed to find and be so awesome sometimes.i wish i knew (oh the emo)

talking of emo the last time i wrote in this box thing i was doing to do an incrediblely emo post as i wasnt so good at the time - with lots of work on i was crying every day and not sure really whther i was going to pass my alevel - lol still not sure whther i will or not!

i have however learnt recentlly that patience is indeed a vitue, and you need to stick in there even though tthe baddest of bad - like in the hols i was panicing about my grade 6 music theory exam and i whave now done it and under tand it alot more even if i dont pass.

just hard to find the faith i guess!

lol i have been doing a pop song for music and been writing some lyrics , and the lines above made me thinkoooh good lyrics. becuase i thing songs are good to put some incredibly honest feelings in that might be hard to say other wise.

lol there are so many spelling mistakes in this! ah well.

does feel nice to be putting some meaningful stuff down here

right i think hoe work wil become me now especially if i want to make it into uni - so i think tonight will be for battling my pop song - cubase is acting up but it needs doing!

i am going to make myself post tommorw so guess see you tommorw livejournal (lol it is a person? feels better than not putting it i is so coool!)

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SCATTERGORIES
...it's harder than it looks! Copy the text below, erase my answers, then use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things.. nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial... You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.

WHAT IS YOUR NAME? natalie
4 LETTER WORD: nerd :D
BOY NAME: neil?
GIRL NAME: natasha
OCCUPATION: neurologist
A COLOR: (im ashamed i didnt think of this :S) NAVY
SOMETHING YOU WEAR: necklace
BEVERAGE: new castle? (cheated and looked on interweb)
FOOD:noodles!
SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: nerve tonic? someone in the world would have one right?
PLACE: new orleans
REASON FOR BEING LATE: nodded off
SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

im not really one for writing (or should i say drabbling) but i saw the rhr100 community and i wondered whether to join or not. ive just tried writing a drabble but im not happy with it and dont know whether it is good enough so if you could take like a mintute to read it that would be really cool!

i thought it would be easy just to write 100 words rather than a long fic but its hard just getting it to 100!

Title:Wizards and their Taplops

Author:bluesrules

Prompt:Help

Rating:G

Word Count (should be 100 words exactly):100 after a while

Warnings:nothing

Notes: very first drabble so tell me that you think!

“Damn and blast the stupid thing!”

Hermione looked up from her copy of the Daily Prophet. “Ron?”

The door banged open.

“How Muggles use this Taplop is beyond me!” Ron said angrily, dropping it hard on the table.

Hermione ignored the Tap lop for now. “Why? What’s wrong with it? Want some help?”

“I’ve tried all sorts of spells to turn it on and the bloody thing is still not working!” Ron said, raking his fingers through his hair.

“Ron, you press the button here, ” she said, demonstrating.

Ron blinked. “Oh.”

She watched him starting to type and smiled.


tell me what you think!

well im going to be getting my as levels results (on the internet cos most people at my school live in a different country so its easier.) im glad i dont have to go into school and can wake up at whatever time i want - im hoping for like 10.30 so i dont have to spend a morning panicking (that spelling looked wrong there a k in it some where?) but i can see that im going to make it snow and wake up at something stupid like 8 o clock. its not promising that im tired now either! at 8.40 for crying out! ah well.

well im not sure how ive done but i hope i have passed everything, as everyone hopes.
i dont think ive passed psychology - last time i got a E . art one of my projects are really bad because we didnt actually have a fucking teacher who knew about the project whilst the other one was in hospital so it sucked! even the 1st term we had an old guy who was as useful as a chocolate teapot - thankfully he left but he still screwed up our classes!

clearly you can see im in a bad mood!

music im hoping ive got about a C but seeing as my teacher has given me a c as a predicted grade i dont think i will have got higher. and music courses at uni will be looking at these - there is a really good course in leeds where u need an A and if they see that as a predicted grade they arent going to want me are they? :S

also having a bad time mentally at the moment very confused about various stuff and i dont see any way to unconfuse myself so at the moment the dementers got me.

on a less moaning side of life i have actually done a painting! nto for school!
sorry about the bad quality -took it with a laptop camera quickly today! shame you cant see more of his suit the pin stripes were a right faff!



mr david tennant from doctor who fame :D i have very recently got into doctor who (i actually managed to watch all of doctor who and torchwood on the internet - which goes to show how much copyright violation goes on!)i always like the doctor better when he is smiling and being funny but i dont have a picture where he is looking happy only moody ones so im going to have to have him looking a wee bit emo.

the slightly geeky thing about it is that i have copied the face from a poster from a doctor who magazine of which i have 2 copies - which is aimed at like 10 year olds to read. also i bought the second one because i had a laser screwdriver that could shoot water. actually i think i am bordering more than on slightly geeky now...

ps. doctor who finale -LOVED 10/R! but hated the very ending D:

well its been a long time but im coming back to dicuss twilight before i forget my feelings about it.


(  S-P-O-I-L-E-R-S FOR TWILIGHT - BREAKING DAWN!!!!!!! )

ha i have used up all my icons but i dont care because they are THE BIG BANG THEORY! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA

PS. I got grade 6 theory books even when i dont have to do it - and enjoyed shopping for them (see why i like TBBT so much? im a nerd too!)

well it has been a while hasn't it? haven't really known what to put down but i think its been long enough!

well stuff is pretty much going ok. am trying to sort out school stuff and am getting some of it done which doesn't happen alot! is very useful with the laptop i got at christmas (mac whoop whoop!) so i can use it in frees and stuff at school.

i also have new software which reads things out to me which is hopefully going to help essays and my psychology revision.(HISTORY HAS BEEN DROPPED and I AM HAPPIER FOR IT! ha proves just how long i haven't posted on here!)

i will also be getting cu-base to help compose. hopefully it will help me at uni if i get in to doing music at it. (so eloquent today its unreal!) i mean it will be really hard doing art or psych and im not good enough so it seemed the best choice. wish i could be certain about these sort of really important decision. it would be very helpful!

recently have got into the big bang theory (getting it on itunes), hairspray (seriously can mime with cant stop the beat - hopefully will be having party at school!!!!!!), that 70's show and wicked oh avenue q, thanks to one of my friends at school. i swear there is so much i want to see on the stage i could stay in london for ages just watching the shows!

oh which reminds me - GUESS WHO SAW SPAMMALOT!!!! i was whooping and cheering and singing along i was embarrassing my family so much lol! had a great time! his name is lancelot was so funny!!! was too used to some of the jokes (you know having repeatedly listened to it on my computer?) but still loved it :D

will be getting my music theory results in april which i really cant wait to get! i might not even need them for grade five if i do trinity board but i think in leeds uni book it says that you need that, and thats where i want to go so its good! and i actually liked doing it! considering doing grade 6 although ive heard its more composition in it but ill give the books a shot!

lol ive just joined ABRSM forums and had my name as doublestoppingmyheart. you can not get cooler than me! ok im off to argue about the use of music noation software rather than hand drawn scores! toodles!

i wouldnt say im much like her cos im not that smart! i did a tv boyfriend one and i got Chuck Bartowski. being british not too sure who he is...

had two fillings done yesterday. was weird with the injection but i managed to cope with it :)

found out this morning like 1 o clock but didnt no what to post.

not sure whether this is the right context but when i was thinkin bout it this came into my head

Goodbye Norma Jean
Though I never knew you at all
You had the grace to hold yourself
While those around you crawled
They crawled out of the woodwork
And they whispered into your brain
They set you on the treadmill
And they made you change your name

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rain set in
And I would have liked to have known you
But I was just a kid
Your candle burned out long before
Your legend ever did

Loneliness was tough
The toughest role you ever played
Hollywood created a superstar
And pain was the price you paid
Even when you died
Oh the press still hounded you
All the papers had to say
Was that Marilyn was found in the nude

Goodbye Norma Jean
From the young man in the 22nd row
Who sees you as something as more than sexual
More than just our Marilyn Monroe

The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 10 people and force them to post this meme on their LJs. Because it is good. Everyone needs a little happiness once in a while.

1.i have settled in at QE fine and am having a really good time. made lots of new friends who are awesome!!!

2.A certain guy at school who is so great and treats me like no other guy has ever done making me happier than i have been in a while. if they are reading this i hope you know its you. :)

3. Alex at school who is so funny she livens up any boring art lesson without fail! she is also a bit off a potter nut (not as much as me) so i have someone to obsess with!

4. thanks to the cooking class at school, i can now cook omlettes! (although i tried to make one this morning but it tasted weird because i put too much cheese in it!)

5.text that i have been getting all through out the holiday. there are not alot of people who will text you in the early hours of the morning to say goodnight to you. or from holland! XD

6.my hush puppy shoes! they are so flipping comfortable at school! however they do make me short but who cares when my feet are comfy!

7.listening to the spammalot soundtrack. the songs are so goooooooooooooooooood! i might be going to see it at christmas as well!

8. my new found liking for nirvana. i have been given lots of music from a certain person at school and they sound pretty awesome!

9.playing battleships with my friend andrea the other day. it was really nice to see her again!

10. I have a new clarinet! a wooden Yamaha one that sounds better and i think (ie hope) it will be easier to play!

IM LEARING JAPANESE!!!!!!!!

im going to be living in that shop... X)

all in all a good days shopping i think!

er trying out this autopost thing, whatever it is.

very random!


ps. moving up to whixley tomorrow!

well after i first read the 6th hp book and got completely obsessed i decided to try my hand at writing.

It makes me laugh to think i wrote this 2 years ago. god i really cant get stuff done quickly can i?

theres some bits that im not sure about so give me all the crit you can!!!

Author: Bluesrules
Title: Gryffindor Hearts
Summary: Pre DH. Missing moment from HBP.
Rating: G
Genre: Er, a bit angst i suppose.
Word Count: 1741
Notes: first attemt at fic so please dont be afraid to comment about bits you dont like!

( Here we go! )

IVE PASSED EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heres the run down:

art - A (:DDDDDD)
biology - C
english language - C
english litertaure - B
german - C
music - A (YAYAYAYAAYAYA!!!!!!!!!!)
IT - C
history - C
maths - B(dont have a flipping clue how i managed that!!!!)

the only ones im a bit dissapointed with are history and biology beacuse i wanted to do history and Psychology for A level (the history im not so sure about any more) but hopefully they will let me do Psychology :)